Dear Future Husband 2.0

And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. 

-Colossians 3:14 

Interestingly enough, I had to come back to this blog post to repost it. When I went to publish the 2.0 version of the original post… The restore button allowed me to republish this in its original format. I could have pretended like I didn’t delete it. However, this season of my life has a lot to do with course correction. When I deleted this post, I reacted to feeling rejected, and operated in offense. I took the time to study what it meant to operate out of offense. For most of my life, when I’ve felt hurt or rejected, which we will experience throughout life… I became offended. And when the old me chose to react this way, I used to forgive, forget, and reject anything associated with it for eternity (that cut off game was real strong). So to anyone that I’ve reacted to in offense, I humbly apologize for not giving and extending grace. I pray that one day you all can forgive me. This is a restoration season. The Hebrew word for restore in Psalm 51:12 is defined as to return or turn back. Some of the things God has restored and will be restoring in this season, will be better than when he originally started or when it was found. I appreciate one of my purpose partners shining a light in an area that only God can restore. While I can’t say what the future holds, I know that I trust the Lord, and I know he will fulfill every promise, even if the outcome doesn’t look the way I expected. The body of this post is in its original state. The conclusion of this post will have some additional changes. I pray that even when we stumble, grow weary, or react in offense, that we can be a community of women who will lovingly and graciously partner with each other to correct and redirect each other. And I also pray that we are humble enough and gracious enough to receive this gift. I’ve said it before, this walk isn’t easy… However, God will guide our paths and place people who are meant to shift and transform us when we choose to walk with Christ. We are restored through the gift and sacrifice of Jesus Christ. May this season of restoration bring you back to a state that’s better than you were before… Without further ado. Dear Future Husband 2.0.

It is with great hesitation that I dare to not only write this letter, but to make it a public declaration. My most inner thoughts and feelings are typically on reserve, and I very rarely share them with others. Let alone, writing it and publishing it for all to see. This newest version of me that God is presenting is different, and I’m still becoming acclimated with her. I love that God’s transformation has given her this boldness and authority to speak and write with such conviction. So here I am, baring parts of my inner thoughts, visions, dreams, and heart. Maybe one day you will read this, and maybe you won’t. I pray that if nothing else, any woman reading this will have the courage to pen a letter to her future spouse without hesitation, with an open heart, and with divine conviction and understanding of who God has called her to be as a future kingdom wife.  

Well, well, well... I was surprised and perplexed, the first time God revealed you as my future husband in a dream. At first, I told myself it was a figment of my imagination, and yet the dreams, visions, and confirmations have continued to be revealed in ways that I do not fully comprehend. Yet, I accept that I am the woman God made just for you, and you are the man that God made just for me. It would be easier for you to be a mystery man, without either of us having prior knowledge or history of who we were in our past. As time has gone on and we’ve both evolved, grown, and moved in different trajectories... Somehow our paths are meant to collide in a way that I erased as ever being a possibility a long time ago. God has a funny sense of humor, and while I thought my life would be different, I am glad God has taken his time molding me into the woman that I am today. One of the things that the Holy Spirit has instructed me to do, is to see you the way that God sees you. While it will take time to observe and learn one another, I welcome the challenge of learning to love you wholeheartedly, with all my soul, and for our spirits to reside with one another. I will love, honor, respect, and cherish you as the one-of-a-kind gift that God has not made another replica of. I pray that you know, in our past, I did not have the mental, emotional, or spiritual capacity to be anybody’s wife. Let alone your wife. There is a unique yet mysterious quality about you and your spirit, that I am intrigued by... And yet all things will be revealed in an anointed and an appointed time.  

Today, in this time and in this space, God has already made me a wife in heaven. Part of the inner work that I was called to do was in preparation for becoming a kingdom wife. Our culture has shown us many different examples of marriages, yet this future marriage was designed by God’s hands. God has a plan, that he has not revealed to me. And that is where you come into play.  God speaks to me in visions, dreams, and repetitions. While I have seen you as my husband, I have yet to see the plans that God has in store for us as husband and wife. There was a prophetic message that “the blind will see,” which is paraphrased from Luke 4:18. I cannot make you see me the way that God sees me, only the hand and an act of God can do that. I pray that you are seeking him daily, and it is in this sacred place with God that you will find me. I have no idea where you are personally, however if you are already spoken for, listen to the voice of God and measure any woman’s character against the word of God. If her character and her spirit do not align with the scripture, it is a fraud that is merely a distraction. There are two types of women described in Proverbs. There are Proverbs 7 women, and Proverbs 31 women. And just like God only made one of you, he only made one of me. You can search this earth for eternity, and there will not now nor will there ever be another Cynallyhia Herminia Indriago on the face of this earth. And yes, I did write my whole government name so that you know I meant what I said!!! 

We both have free will, so I cannot and will not tell you what you should do or how you should go about it. If God has revealed me to you with a word, message, vision, or dream, then he will guide you. He will give you instructions on how and when I am to be found. I keep referring to "being found”, because God keeps reminding me that my husband is meant to find me (does Proverbs 18:22 ring a bell?) So, while I have been very tempted to say something to you, I cannot go against a clear and direct instruction from our Heavenly Father. I also pray that in due season if God instructs you to pursue me, that you test my character against the word of the Lord.  If my character and spirit do not align with the character of the wife he has for you, then please forgive me for speaking out of turn. More than anything else, I pray for your happiness, peace, and love that God intends for you to experience here on earth. If I am yours, and you are mine, I am excited and patiently waiting for what God has in store for us as our paths and journeys align. Salud to a forever love that will stand the test of time.  

During my time of reflection to what I thought was rejection, the Holy Spirit kept giving me these verses. “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 and “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26. Ironically enough, I wrote earlier in this post about the blind seeing… While that is still true, and we are meant to see things in the spiritual realm. I became offended by things I did see and things I haven’t seen come to pass in the physical world. The shift in the atmosphere has brought a level of understanding that I didn’t have before. My thoughts are no longer restless, and I will continue to wait on the Lord, until he says that enough is enough. Whether God uses you as my future husband, or if he reassigns you. I know that his vision was clear and true. The bible says “Then the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain on tablets, that he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; but at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” Habakkuk 2:2-3 Whatever God is doing, I may not see it, but I can feel it. I trust God the Father, Jesus Christ the son, and the Holy Spirit. I’ve allowed God to calm the storm, and he’s restored my peace to a level that surpasses even my understanding and logic. I don’t know how he’s going to do it. But I do know one thing… It will be great! My life as it is, is pretty good. But God wants and intends to make it great. Until the anointed and appointed time has come… I’m waiting on the Lord and I’m following his instructions and the path that he has set forth. God is with you, and as long as you seek him, he will guide you forever and always. So in the spirit I will continue to keep you in my prayers. And one day, we will be on this journey praying with each other until the end of time.

Your future wife,  

Cynallyhia Indriago