Jesus is the pivot
Jesus said to him. “I am the way, the truth, and the life.”
John 14:6
In the spirit of transparency, this post will be a pivot from what I thought would be published today. Originally, I thought it would be best to talk about God’s love languages this week, and that post will still be published soon. However, let’s be real, open, and honest today. When we choose to walk by faith, and put our trust in the Lord, there are parts of this journey where the paths are dark, turbulent, and challenging. Walking by faith doesn’t always feel good or look pretty. Personally, the past few days have been long, tiring, and trying the last bit of my patience. This past weekend, I had the opportunity to experience a “Refreshing Retreat” with some amazing women of God. It was just what I needed because life has really been lifing, work seems never ending, and so many different things that could go wrong... Have gone completely and totally wrong!
During this mini trip, there were many times where I’d retreat to sit with God and admire the beauty of everything that he’s created. Bodies of water are where I feel closet to God, so the lake was beautiful and serene. It was also peaceful, until I got thrown off a jet ski which was not a part of my plans since I was relaxing for the most part. We had some great food, good music, amazing conversations, and even met some new connections during this time. While living in the moment things were great. Until I had to face some honest conversations, that internally I was not ready for. While I was giving my testimonies about my past, this new venture, and this new season... I was asked a question, and my answer surprised everyone at the table including myself. Ya girl is frustrated! Before I knew it, how I felt internally was now being verbalized openly, which I did not plan to do. How could this be? The transformation of my life since giving a complete and total surrender to Christ has really blown my mind. Last year, I wrote out a manifestation of prayers, and God has been showing out ever since. God showed me the visions and dreams for it, he provided provisions, and almost everything that was written has come to pass... Except this one thing. This one thing that I have probably wanted, hoped, wished, and prayed for most is the last thing for God to fulfill. And here I am FRUSTRATED (all caps) and confused. It is not easy to admit these emotions, especially because God has been faithful! He has done everything that he said he would do. So why do I feel this way? Life has been really really good (except for these past two weeks), yet I have the audacity to be frustrated with our heavenly father. One of the things I like to tell others is that emotions are fleeting. Yet, my confusion and frustrations are strong and wrong in this moment. And contrary to popular belief... It's OK! It’s OK to feel how you feel. Just don’t stay there. Do not settle into negative, dark, or desolate spaces. The enemy of our lives will have us question the very things God has already confirmed to us. He already wrote it, said it, and revealed it to us. It is already done!
When the enemy shows up in our lives with a bag full of trickery, deception, lies, and misery. Just know that Jesus is the pivot. “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.” Hebrews 13:8 Even in the moments where we feel lost and confused about what is happening in our lives. Take some time to remember all the things God has already done in our lives. How he’s loved us through some of our worst seasons, how he shines a light even during our darkest hours. The valleys, the weapons, the storms, the turbulence, and the darkness will come throughout our lives, and in any given season. Yet the light of the world will always prevail and overcome all of it, just keep your hope and faith in the Lord. During some of these moments where I begin to feel uneasy, I retreat to my prayer room and cry out to the Lord. I sit in this secret place, and I allow the Holy Spirit to come in and restore my peace. It is during these intimate moments that I feel safe and loved. Even during times of uncertainty, God loves us! He loves every single one of his children in his own way and he will show up for you, especially when you need him the most. In the book of Exodus when the Israelites cried out to the Lord, unbeknownst to them God sent Moses as the answer to their prayers. So if you’re feeling upset, angry, frustrated, sad, hopeless or defeated... It’s OK! Take it to God and leave it at his feet. His yoke is easy and his burden is light. Jesus wants to take all the worries and pain away, if we will let him have his way. This blog post was not part of the plan, yet vulnerability and honesty is a cheat code that can unlock new levels to this journey. Our Heavenly Father can navigate a detour far better than we can. I pray this open dialogue blesses you beautiful women of God! Sending you all prayers of peace, love, and light!!!
Always with love,
Love Esther